PNDLM System, Part I — Without Reservation
A few of us are now seriously researching how to scale PNDLM to a certain number of staff consultant architects, designers and engineers while simultaneously improving our overall quality of service.
But before I get into that, it seems I need to reflect and pay a moment of gratitude to what is in hindsight maybe the most important book I've ever read. Just a few years after I accidentally launched PNDLM, in a time of serious questioning and discontent, I discovered Ryan Holiday's "Ego Is The Enemy" on Tim Ferriss' podcast. The chapter Ryan read was called "What's Important To You?", and it tells the story of how after architecting the union's victory in the Civil War, General Sherman decided that he had "all the rank" he wanted, turned down requests to run for office, and retired in happiness. Grant, meanwhile, followed an opposite path, pursuing the Presidency and then attempting to become an investor— both of which went poorly, sullying his reputation and bankrupting him. Ryan argues that Grant had "accomplished so much, but to him it wasn't enough— he couldn't decide what was important, what actually mattered to him." At first this seems like maybe an entreaty against the pursuit of success at all, but then Ryan questions what if Grant had used his time to pursue things that mattered to him, "how much more could he have done and accomplished?"
To know what you like is the beginning of wisdom, and of old age.
--Robert Lewis Stevenson
It's very easy for people, but especially for "entrepreneurs", to get caught up in the trap of thinking that success is measured in dollars earned and that more dollars equals more happiness. I have been deeply aware of this trap for a long time, but even still I have the ability to forget for a moment that my success in finding happiness so far has come because I didn't focus on raw revenue and growth over everything.
So now, similar to how I'm thinking about how to increase the number of contributors in the business while also increasing delivery quality, how do I pursue serious growth and revenue increase while also increasing my own personal happiness? Such pursuit would have to be actually important and matter to me.
My personal circumstances have continued to improve and this summer I began to feel the door opening to new opportunities in my life. I could go into details, but— I'm happy; my financial, home and marital stability are all very good; there's nothing else in my personal life I feel really strongly about achieving (I already got to do the important stuff); I'm not ready to flat-line (eventually discontenting) or retire (extreme boredom); I came upon a few clear visions of how some details of my personal and business life could actually be improved, I could be happier, and that got me finally excited about pursuing this new great challenge wholeheartedly and without reservation.
And since I'm now confident that I'm not risking any part of my happiness, but actually the opposite, I have a fighting shot at making some real progress.